The NEW new school year

So we start a daycare on Monday. JD will be in the PreK room with 4 and 5 year old typical peers. His aide will be with him. We’ll see how it goes and maybe this will turn into our long term solution.

Meanwhile our attorney is still handling the mess of the former religious pre school (AKA Limbo) --Catholic humor. and the intervention agency (AKA A##hats). --regular humor Once they heard I was attending the IEP with representation, suddenly it was postponed and I was strongly urged to attend without representation a handful of times. So here we are 2 weeks later and still no date. Yes, we’re working on it. It is hard to understand the retaliation games being played on a 5 year old. Yes, this is really the world we live in. Grown a## people acting like my 2 year twins in tantrums. The stress is annoying. Feeling like we can not control this and get this fixed is pissing me off. ALOT!

Yesterday when we visited the daycare, he cried once he understood that some of his old friends would not be there. Emotionally tough to try and get him to cope with all the school changes. I am sure he feels confused. My one singular hope through this mess of discrimination and unfairness is that he does not feel too much of it. 

We are starting over. I hope the ugliness is behind us. I just want him to be around other kids his age and I hope the remainder of this year goes well for him. My fear is that it will not go well and we will be “asked” to leave another place. I think if that happens I will keep him home with me and home school. It is not fair to him to keep subjecting him to other folks hatred and ignorance. 

Does it ever get easy? Being a parent means we make decisions, sometimes good and sometimes bad. I made a bad decision in sending him to the religious pre-k. I should never have tried it, I should never have believed that my parish would keep its promise. I am so sorry JD, I’m sorry I let you down buddy. Mommy is sorry.